I don't know about you, but I've always preferred the trick part. I find treats boring and predictable, plus I hear they give you cavities and huge dental bills. No, the trick is where I thrive, but this year Halloween is serving me a trick I'm not enjoying much. This post is a little more personal than my previous ones but bear with me.
Halloween is bittersweet for me as it makes me miss my ex-boyfriend with an intensity that's unlike me. I usually don't get gooey and - feelings - yuck! I prefer not to have them much. Mostly joking about this but I'm not one for pining. But I am missing my ex, and for the first time I am aware of the finality of never seeing him again. Ever.
What triggered the trip down memory lane was stumbling across pictures of him a few days ago as I was looking for something else. This ex is not my first, but he's probably my last. The reason this - pining - is taking me by surprise is that never once have I ever pined over anyone in the past, but this guy was something else and Halloween was a special time for us.
Do I feel bad for feeling this while I have a loving husband? Not really. Does the lack of guilt make me a bad person? Doubt it. Would I rekindle anything with this ex should our paths cross again - however unlikely? No.
But here I am, pining for my ex and looking at the pictures of us. YUCK! Enough pining for today I think.